🌸Thinspiration🌸
like i spend hours looking at thinspo and i keep my stomach as empty as i can and i think to myself “i’m doing good”, but then look at the scale and see how far away i am from my goal, i look in the mirror and i don’t see my hip bones or my ribs or a thigh gap, i shower and when i’m washing myself i can grab onto so much fat. i always have to remind myself when i’m eating or when i want to go for seconds or when i think i should eat more that i’m not skinny, at least not yet, and that seems to be the only thing that keeps me going.
i don’t know maybe i’m just weird.
I hate it when people are like “Whattt you don’t have to lose weight! You look fine” whenever I say I’m on a diet. Like no. I don’t want to be “fine”. I’m not happy with my body. Just because I’m not morbidly obese doesn’t mean I can’t afford to lose more weight. I don’t like the way I look. I want to be skinny and I want to be able to feel my bones. I want to be tiny. I want to be able to be confident in my own body. But they wouldn’t understand. I’m “fine”.
Hello! I started on IG but moved to tumblr because of their lax community guidelines. I’ve had disordered eating since 2013 and currently weigh 150 lbs with a goal of 100. I’ll post thinspo, workouts, tips, and other ed related things. Good luck!
